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[17 Oct 2013|08:27pm]
Sean is really driving me crazy lately. I think it's a combination of his age and my exhaustion. He repeats everything over and over and has this annoying fake laugh that goes on for days. It's really annoying. But I do hear his friends doing it as well so I'm sure it's just the age.

My sleep problems are nearly breaking me. I've been trying to get help for over ten years without much success. I've gotten an odd pill here or there but they never help. I kept begging for a referral to a sleep clinic and none of the doctors would ever give me one. Finally, two months ago, I got a bit...unpleasant and refused to leave without the referral. She wrote it but I still haven't heard anything from the clinic. So I made an appointment at the private one. It's expensive, but I'm pretty desperate at this point. The exhaustion is affecting every aspect of my life now. What makes me saddest is that I know I would most likely have more patience and more energy to be the mother I want to be if I could just get a good nights sleep. My appointment is at the end of the month so keep your fingers crossed that they can help me.

Work is good, and not. My boss has no leadership skills. I've heard now from most of the other employees that they've all had problems with her and that she shouldn't be in charge of employees. *sigh* I don't know how I always end up with bosses that are only in charge because they've been there the longest, not because they are actually qualified to lead people. The garments that were sewn before I arrived have all been returned because of problems. The wrong labels, wrong sizes, clothing label doesn't match bag label, etc. It's annoying but I can understand how it happened...kind of. Doesn't matter, I can fix the issues but my boss keeps treating me like I'm an idiot and like I've made all these mistakes. I pointed out to her that I didn't sew those garments and showed her how I knew that. She responded that I shouldn't make excuses and shift blame. Uhh....ok. If I make a mistake I admit it. I'm pretty fucking good at my job and I'm very, very organized. I'm not saying I won't make a mistake, but I do try to set myself up for success so that mistakes are as minimal as possible. Gah! Anyhow, it's been a really stressful week to say the least.

Oh, and my pain-free arm is no longer pain-free. :( *sigh*
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[06 Jun 2012|12:09am]
People, I am SO STRESSED. Looking for an apartment in one city, looking for a job in another. Not knowing if I'll be moving or not. Not knowing if I'll have a job or not. Feeling so completely overwhelmed by this all. Ugh. Ugh. and Ugh.
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[14 May 2012|07:40pm]
I suffer from "skadeglädje". Do we even have a word for that in English? The words the dictionary gives don't seem quite right: malice, gloat, spitefulness. It's when you laugh at someone's pain, not with a cruel intent. More like when someone trips and falls and the falling itself was terrifically funny even though the after math wasn't. I cannot stop laughing about stuff like that! It's a curse. My younger sister and I once got glared out of a yoga class because we both could not compose ourselves after someone stretched themself the wrong way, got hurt, and then made a funny comment about it. haha

I forgot to mention that on Saturday my date willingly went second-hand shopping with me. (Dream guy! haha) While in the stores we both kind of went our own ways while browsing. In one store I managed to knock an ENTIRE shelf of ceramics onto the floor. It was an impressive crash! I was so embarrassed. When we were in the car I asked him if he'd heard all the commotion, he had. Then I confessed that it was me and we both had a good laugh. hehe
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[20 Apr 2012|10:30pm]
Before I found out that my job was moving to Gothenburg I had started to make plans for Sean and I. Since I was working in Fritsla, and Robert is no longer living there, I thought we could move back. I searched for apartments, I signed Sean up for a daycare transfer, I was planning on riding my bike to work. The apartment would be cheaper and I'd save money on gas each month as well. Fritsla is a small village, but a very active one. They have tons of activities for children throughout the year. Today the owners of the apartment I wanted most of all phoned and said it was mine if I wanted it. I had to turn it down. Ugh. I know there are better things waiting for us, but just ugh.

I was watching Discovery channel tonight and a show called "First Week In" came on. It follows three different criminals during their first week of prison. I thought of my brother. I wonder how he is. I hope he's ok. It makes me sad.

I finally, finally bought a little lamp to have by the bed so that I can read Sean bedtime stories in bed again. He's quieter and concentrates better when we lay in bed. Sitting on the sofa and trying to read to him before bedtime is not great. He jumps up and down and has comments about every word I read. It winds him up instead of calming him down, not good. haha
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[16 Apr 2012|09:44pm]
Said by Sean today: "I gonna have hair on my penis when I get big. You know, big like daddy then I gonna have hair....Not like you Mommy, you have ONLY hair. Your penis falled off. My penis doesn't falls off."

Boys! LOL
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[13 Apr 2012|05:55pm]
I turned forty on Easter. There was no big party or anything, but I did get a suprise visit and nice gift from our previous neighbors. Sean did the whole Easter trick-or-treating thing. Sometimes it's beneficial living in an elderly neighborhood. Those old folks really know how to give out the candy! I think they all gave him at least three handfulls! haha

I am LOVING my job. It's just challenging enough to keep it interesting and the coworkers are just great. However, we got the news this week that in October they are moving the company to Gothenburg and integrating it into a larger company. That went over like a lead brick. It's not the worst news but it does mean that I have to make some changes. I cannot afford to drive to Gothenburg every day. This means I either have to find a new job or move to Gothenburg. I like living out here in the country. Moving to the city has it's plusses and I try to keep the positives in mind. Closer to friends. Good shopping. Easier to date. Possibly easier to find a babysitter. But there are negatives as well. Higher costs. Less open spaces. More crime. There is also concerns over schooling in the future and the real risk of not getting a daycare spot if we move. Ugh... lots of thoughts that have been keeping me up late at night. Anyhow, I've signed up with some rental agencies and also with the unemployment office, so who knows what will happen. Changes are a commin!
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[17 Dec 2010|02:26am]
Sean is a potty-trained professional! No accidents and he even stops playing to tell me he needs to go. Awesome!
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[20 Jun 2010|11:50am]
It's Father's Day! That' mean's more DADDY pictures:


Here's the last two for comparison:Collapse )
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[19 Mar 2010|10:44pm]
We had a little family party for Sean on Wednesday. Robert's parents and our old neighbors were here. I made a big flag banner thing to hang across the living room and then hung up balloons all over. Sean was so excited. All day he kept saying, "Sean birthday!" with a big smile and sparkly eyes. He's not a big cake eater generally so I tried to make something I thought he might like a little bit. I made a pancake cake with layers of chocolate, whipped cream, and peaches. He ate tons of the ingredients while we were putting it together and then at the party he ate one bite of cake. I call it a success! hahaha

I really suck at taking birthday pictures. I didn't get any good ones at his first birthday and none at the family party this year either. Ugh. I have one more chance at his big party tomorrow.

Evidently flickr won't let me upload pics right now so you'll have to wait to see them.
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[20 Aug 2009|12:21am]
Uhh....a mink just walked through my front yard. That's a first!
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[07 Aug 2009|11:37pm]
Today was a very momentous day! My baby boy got his very first haircut! Gone are the oh-so-sweet baby curls. :( I didn't want to do it, but it really was neccessary. His hair is really thick and was actually quite long. The curls were getting so tangled that it was difficult to comb his hair.

He did so well at the salon. He sat on my lap and looked at his favorite book. When that got boring I pulled out the bubbles and he was thrilled. The only part he wouldn't stand for was having the clippers around his ears so that part of the cut isn't as sharp as it could be. But I was happy enough with it even though I was also sad to see the curls go.

Here's the before and after:Collapse )
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[04 Aug 2009|10:03pm]
Sean is 16.5 months old now. He started walking last Friday. He's never even stood up without holding onto something and then all of a sudden on Friday he just up and starts walking on his own. Today he is running. He is something else! haha

He hollers through the house for Robert (Pappa!) to find out where he is. If Robert isn't home or doesn't answer he gets mad. Also, if I lose my patience with the dogs and tell them to go lay down he tries to mimic what I've said, in the same tone. Eeek!

New words he says: shoes, Kian (the neighbor boy), bubbles, diaper.

Whenever he sees something that is soft, like a teddy, a dog, a cat, etc. even if it is just a picture in a book, he squints his eyes a little, rubs his cheek with his hand, and says, "ohhhhhhh" trying to convey how soft it is. I love this. hehe

As for me, I've been struggling with some emotional things, but it's getting better. I've been to the doctor about a problem with my ears. It's not better so I'll be calling again tomorrow. All my various pains are still present although the SPD pain is getting a lot better. I think the stop in breastfeeding has helped that a lot. I start back to work in 6.5 weeks. :/
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I've created a monster! [03 Jul 2009|10:57pm]
I'm positive that aliens have taken my son and left a foul-tempered look-alike in his place. Seemingly overnight Sean has developed a powerful temper and a very strong sense of what he does and does not like. And what he does not like the most is to be told "no".

I have no doubt about where he got his temper. It wasn't from his placid father. *ahem*

He woke up at 6am this morning. I handed him his water bottle and turned to check the clock. His alphabet book was sitting in front of it so I moved it and that caught his attention. He wanted the book. I told him no, that it was too dark to see it and we would read it later. Then I closed my eyes and was trying to half sleep a little longer. But no, instead I got a bottle slammed down onto my head and a screaming banshee in my bed. I took the bottle away and told him not to do that. Then, stupidly, closed my eyes again only to be double slapped across the face. What the....???!!!!

He scratched the skin off of Robert's nose yesterday. He gave me a titty-twister today because I was changing his diaper and he didn't approve. Pinching is his new greatest joy. carrieb I'm so totally understanding the abuse you've been going through these last years. haha

Although he is still my little angel, he's certainly good at being devlish. I mean, look at the gleam in those eyes. Something painful happened about two seconds after that picture was taken. haha
devlish imp
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[01 Jul 2009|09:35pm]
It's been hot, hot, hot here over the past week! I'm not complaining though, not much anyway. I do complain at night when I'm trying to sleep and am instead sweating and sticking to the bedding. Ugh. I will be much happier at this time next week when I get to endure hot temperatures with my choice of a sea or a pool to lounge in. haha

Sean is not breastfeeding at all anymore. Last Thursday he was pretty uninterested in the session before bedtime so on Friday night I decided that if he asked for it he could have it but otherwise I wouldn't offer. He didn't ask. And he hasn't asked since. I was a bit sad at first because I really wasn't ready to stop. I enjoyed the closeness with him and that little bit of special time we had together that was unlike anything he had with anyone else. But that's how it goes. And I am super happy that throughout the process of weaning it was fairly painless for him, and me. I only had to pump once for relief. I wanted it to be easy for him and it seems that it was.

He's climbing staircases now. But he doesn't do it on his hands and knees. No, no, my son does it on his hands and feet! haha He definitely has a strong sense of how he wants to do things and there's no persuading him otherwise. He's also very interested in using silverware and feeding Robert and I. He thinks it is especially fun to feed us his bottle of water. And if we forget, he is there to remind us to make the Ahhhhh sound when we're finished. hahaha One time he was sharing his water with me and I told him no thank you and that I was finished and I kind of turned my head away. Well he just leaned forward, grabbed my chin, turned my face back towards him, brushed the hair out of my face, and stuck the bottle in my mouth! Such a crack up!

Today I cleaned up the kiddie pool and filled it with some water. Normally I would just let him get in it naked, but I wanted him to try on his new sun protection swimsuit, plus I didn't want to slather on full-body sunscreen an hour before naptime. And because I'm lazy. Ha! He was a little dubious of the pool at first, he loves taking a bath so maybe it was the red color or the fact that it was outside that threw him off. But it didn't take long for him to enjoy it and then he didn't want to get out.

kiddie pool

kiddie pool

kiddie pool

And look at those curls!!! His hair is actually really long it just coils up into these tight little spiral curls. hehe I think it's soooooo cute!
kiddie pool
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[24 Jun 2009|09:23am]
On Monday Sean had his 15 month healthy baby check-up. And he is healthy. In three months time he has grown 5 centimeters and is now 85cm (33.4") long! And he weighs 0.3 kilos more than he did three months ago, so currently 19.6 kilos (43 lbs). He did weigh over 21 kilos, and probably more, but the near stop on breastfeeding and the increased mobility have done their magic and he is slimming down. Just as I always knew in my little mommy heart. haha

Here he is with his nurse, Sister Karin.
15 month check-up

The words that he says right now (that we have caught on to anyway):
blomma (flower in swedish)
bye bye
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[13 Jun 2009|03:23pm]
Father's Day (the American/British one) is next weekend and so my neighbor and I spent the morning taking photos of our boys again. It was a whole lot trickier this year, they are so much more mobile! haha Here's what I ended up with for Robert:

DADDY - 2009

And here's last years for comparison:Collapse )
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[09 Jun 2009|09:13pm]
Blah! What a lot of grey and cold we have these days! It's crazy to have to bundle up in a jacket, scarf, and hat just to spend some time outdoors in JUNE!! We are trying to find a good last-minute deal on a vacation somewhere sunny.

washing windows

On Sunday Sean started walking with his wagon walker toy thing. At first he couldn't get into the standing position on his own but it didn't take long before he figured that out. I have a feeling he's going to be a runner. I don't mean athletically, I mean running to get away from Mommy and Daddy's reach. haha Already he crawls like a maniac "running" away from us and laughing the whole time. We are in for it! I'll be purchasing one of those backpack leashes for sure. haha

watching the dogs play

He said his first word yesterday. He said "juice". It's SOOOOOOOO cute I can't even stand it. I ask him to say it over and over. haha We don't even say it that much because we only drink juice on Sunday mornings, but I guess it made an impression on him. haha

Jessie is sure noticing Sean's increasing mobility. He chases her around the house non-stop and this is where she usually gives up and just lets him do what he wants:
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[24 May 2009|02:33pm]
We've had a good weekend. It's just been quiet and spent at home, but nice nonetheless. The neighbor's man has been away so we've had her and her son over for dinner and tea a few times. And Sean and I have gone there to hang out and play as well.

The weaning is still going well. We're down from every three hours all day long to twice at night. He's feeling a bit sad about it this week and is extra clingy during naps and at night. That's okay though, I understand that it's hard for him. It's most difficult when he still decides he doesn't want to eat because he thinks he'll wait it out for the milk. But the milk doesn't happen and he gets cranky and hungry but still won't eat. So twice I've felt his stomach growling in the night and it makes me sad, but I don't give in.

Yesterday Robert gave Sean and the neighbor boy rides on the lawn mower. Once Sean got the ear protectors on he felt like he couldn't move his head, he would just move his eyes around, it was funny. They both really had fun.

taking a ride
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[18 May 2009|06:46pm]
Sunday was a perfect day, weather-wise, for a trip to the zoo. We spent the whole afternoon there looking at all the animals. Then we came home and grilled steaks for dinner. Sean loved the zoo! He missed both his naps and was still just as happy as could be.

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[16 May 2009|03:53pm]
I am seriously like a whole new person today. It's crazy and good! The night weaning is going so well with Sean. I got five totally uninterrupted hours of sleep last night! I couldn't even believe it when I looked at the clock. I've not had that much sleep since before Sean was born!

And today he ate an entire jar of food for lunch. He's only ever eaten half the jar before. And then he had a container of yoghurt for "dessert". Can you believe that? It's like feast or famine with him. haha He's going to eat us out of house and home now. Uh-oh.
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